In work on my own and I am so incredibly bored. I have the radio on but it's not helping to keep the yawns at bay.

I am also incredibly tired. Since the events of my birthday a week and a half ago I haven't been sleeping properly - I go to bed but either spend hours tossing and turning trying to get to sleep or wake up at silly o'clock in the morning and am unable to get back to the land of z's.

Added to this are anxiety attacks. Tightness of chest. Dizziness. Light-headed. Feeling faint.

Part of me thinks I should go to the doctor, however, I know what she will say and I am dreading once again being handed a prescription for anti depressants. I want to survive without them but at times like this when the world feels like it's on top of me I think I can't!