I'm down with my parents and I am fidning it tough.

It's normally a challenging time for me as I find myself needing to hide who I am and various other things away "just in case the neighbours find out" but this time is even harder.

I haven't told them about the work situation. I know I should. I just don't want to here their comments which will without a doubt be tactless and make me feel worse about the situation than I already do. I will get the blame for everything. I will be told that somehow it is my fault.

So my mother keeps asking questions that I can't answer. This is partly because I know nothing about the things she's asking but also because I feel choked up about it all.

I sent the school a last ditch attempt email the other day. I suggested they let me have a rolling probation period. They could let me work it a month at a time and if it's not working out then they can get rid of me. I even offered a lower salary rate. Due to the lack of response I guess it's gone down like a lead balloon.

I have started to apply for other jobs but I don't really want to tell the boss what has happened. I feel embarassed that someone has painted me in such a negative light.

Well it's time for coffee on the patio and yet more attempts at avoidance of awkward questions.

There maybe a lot of silence around here.